The Night

The sun had fallen off, raise of the moon light shin upon in the sky. Owl came awake, crickets starts cracking, streets went silents and everyone end their day onto a good night sleep.

I found myself awake in hours, eyes wide open, mind wondering around into the past and dream about the future. times flew by, seconds, minutes and hours................... i just can't get to sleep. I kind of feel lost and lonely in this peaceful night, but i also felt comfort and secure. My mind couldn't stop playing tricks on me.

How i wish there's somone by my side during this time....... but kind of think of that i feel greatful that i didn't have to make someone suffer by my side. Whenever i'm happen to be in this situation i would gone crazy, thinking on all sorts of things............. my mind was so mess up.

Sometime i rally wonder that am i mad? And starts to think that no one could ever understand me. My way, my life, my feeling me too find it hard to understand myself. I really doubt on myself.

I really need someone, so close to me, stay by my side and grab me back from the wildeness. Letting me to know that there's someone here that will be more important than anything in my life. But i am too afraid to once again hurt someone or even lost someone that i really treasure.

I wonder..... whether there is really someone for everyone in their life, i will keep on wonder, searching in this wildeness to find the someone in my life.

For now i will remain in the forbidden........ till the day someone would be able to break through the boundary and find the soul of me.........