Everything Have A Begining Have An End......

Ever thought whats the reason of life? For Food? During baby's time when u are hungry u will cried for food wouldn't you? For Love? When you are young ppl love you, when u grew up you will learn to love ppl and when u are old the loved one will remain in your memories. For Money? Even when the very first day when u were borned, your parents had to paid for ur birth. For Career? You study for so many years for a degree or futher more and work for the rest of your life or maybe u even get so successful tat u were unable to retire?

Whats life after all? Ever wonder?

You are living to survive, you are dying to let others survive. This is a cycle that everyone of us are living through........ Nothing gonna change

For Every begining there will sure to be an end.

Your life is what you be controlling, live it worthfully don't waste it.

Whether the boundary will be forbidded or not?

I'm really confuse, i'm really confuse. I dun understand, i can't figure it out. Everything seem so smoothly but ends up nothing is right. i really dunnoe, my brain is cracking, my ehad is aching, i can't think straight, i can't decide.

Should i or should i not? opens up the boundary's gate for her? i'm staying in this forbidded area for so long, i felt so lonely for this long years. Suddenly this angle appeared out of the blue, she brighten up my life, i no longer feel cold, i no longer afraid of the outside world, i no longer hide myself in the dark.

But When i wanted to opens up this barrier about my boundary, She turn away from my boundary and started to fly away. I was confuse really confuse. why, i repeatly questioning myself why. Why she bare to leave mi, why she appear in my life, why she make mi felt tat i really have some hope, why she even bother to talks to mi. WHY!!!!!!!!

I turned around walks back to my vary own boundary and ready to create a stronger barrier to forbid anyone else anyone! from entering again. I really lost faith to any of those. I am just a fool that thinks tat i will have such fortune. Ha hahaha i am just a fool after all........

Frens or Rivals

Frens or Rivals it is so hard to say. Sometimes they are so trustworthly and truth, you can speak ur mind up to them and discuss about upcoming plans or stuffs...... They may also turn out to become someone you dislike, what you told them they betray, what u discussed with them they oppose you. They think that they are the best, insult and disapprove with your ideas and thinks that they are stupid! But why would they let u know whats up in their mind, cause they trust you as a fren, they believe that whats up in their mind letting you know maybe you will reliaze that you really are in the wrong. But sometime they are too self centred that they overdone what they should have. Its so difficults to be a fren of mine.........

Thats why i would wanted to stay in my forbidden boundary forever

The Night

The sun had fallen off, raise of the moon light shin upon in the sky. Owl came awake, crickets starts cracking, streets went silents and everyone end their day onto a good night sleep.

I found myself awake in hours, eyes wide open, mind wondering around into the past and dream about the future. times flew by, seconds, minutes and hours................... i just can't get to sleep. I kind of feel lost and lonely in this peaceful night, but i also felt comfort and secure. My mind couldn't stop playing tricks on me.

How i wish there's somone by my side during this time....... but kind of think of that i feel greatful that i didn't have to make someone suffer by my side. Whenever i'm happen to be in this situation i would gone crazy, thinking on all sorts of things............. my mind was so mess up.

Sometime i rally wonder that am i mad? And starts to think that no one could ever understand me. My way, my life, my feeling me too find it hard to understand myself. I really doubt on myself.

I really need someone, so close to me, stay by my side and grab me back from the wildeness. Letting me to know that there's someone here that will be more important than anything in my life. But i am too afraid to once again hurt someone or even lost someone that i really treasure.

I wonder..... whether there is really someone for everyone in their life, i will keep on wonder, searching in this wildeness to find the someone in my life.

For now i will remain in the forbidden........ till the day someone would be able to break through the boundary and find the soul of me.........

Awful Memories..............................

Moonlight shine upon the sky, gentle wind runs freely across the peaceful piece of land, silence nite in every corner of the land............. AHHHHhhhhhhhh..... Suddenly, screaming of pain, roaring of anger, goaning of loneliness stormed through the thin air.

Someone, somewhere in the middle of the nite, struggling with the memories of the past.

In the central of the forbidden..............

Looking into this pair of eyes of this fearful creature, you can see pain, fear, anger, loneliness all been shown. The memories of someone......... Had left a big scar in this creature's heart, whenever this awful memories came by this the wound in the heart starts to bleed, mind of the creature would go into confusion, unrest, lost and insane. Smashing and destroying everything, throwing itself to the wall and the ground, couldn't hold itself together. Till this creature blackout.......

The memories............ Why is it so difficult to forget about something or someone, you noe u dun want to remember abt any of this things but it just came into u. 3 long years i still can't forget abt it. am i mad? am i stupid? or am i unwilling to let it go? I only noe tat this hurtful memories will nv be gone but it will only be covered over and left behind but other memories. Until then, i will nv forget abt this someone................ altot this someone had already forgotten abt mi.......

You Are Nv Welcome Here..............To the Forbidden

Back OFF!!!! Do u noe tat u had step one foot into the forbidden? This may cause u losing ur life. Scare? if u are leave here at once, turn over and nv return, this is not a place for ppl likes you. You will nv noe wat will happen if u continue ur journey into the boundary.
Hmm.. indeed u have some guts to took a few steps in, i can read ur mind..... u are curious abt this boundary...... if u really want to find out just follow this path, it will lead to the ans................................................. WAHAHAHAHA